A little miracle happened last weekend when I participated at the One Women Conference.
It’s is a vulnerable and personal story. But it is something I can now share from a place of love, and it might serve others too.
A couple of months ago my mother told me she no longer wanted to have me in her life.
Chances are we will never see each other again.
It was a blow I had feared for as long as I can remember.
During my childhood I had learned to watch out for the danger moments.
I jumped through all kind of hoops, constantly adjusting my thoughts, emotions and expressions.
Everything to prevent her setting off that bomb that I knew would forever cast me out of her mother love.
But life happened and I did became myself; a woman who’s life is rich with meaning, love and purpose.
Because I choose to breathe and live my authentic expression, inspired by unconditional love.
Being in a close relationship with a truth speaker is unbearable for someone with a narcissistic personality disorder.
Even if it is your own child.
So, I finally had fused the bomb.
But what it did was not at all what I had feared.
Instead it opened my heart even wider.
Her choice was not my choice.
I was still me.
Loving her as my mother without any need of her having to act on it.
The truth is that there does not needs to be a reason for love.
Love just is.
So is mother love. It is a power that is available for every person and being in the world. You don’t have to do a damn thing to earn or deserve it.
It’s there for everyone to bathe in it and be healed by it.
Sometimes our personality, a life circumstance, or something like a mental disorder can make us forget it.
But it’s there.
Last weekend during the One Women’s Conference I danced in a huge virtual circle with women who were sharing their mother love so freely and without any condition.
Hell, we had just danced before, giving it to ourselves first!
Just because we want it. We need it.
We can Mother ourselves.
I’ve been with One of Many since 2016.
I have been in the conferences, in retreats, I have done the coaching certification, and the trainers certification training.
Every time I felt this mother wound. Releasing and transforming.
But this time I felt some kind of miracle was happening. I did not feel a wound.
Instead I experienced a powerful vessel of mother love.
In everyone and in myself.
It became very clear to me I absolutely need to nurture and mother myself better in some areas of my life. But it is no longer a wound. It is something I am perfectly able to do for myself.
I’m finally at that state where you always want to be when you’re a kid: “later, when I’m the grown up, I’m gonna do it MY WAY!”
I realised that everything I do in my work – as an Authentic Expression coach and healer for women who want to lead from unconditional love – is now ready to get in flow and blossom.
If you want to experience what it means to have this lifeforce inside of you, that allows you to authentically express yourself no matter what… next week I have a free 5-day mini course about it.
I invite you from my heart to sign up for it and join me for this short, but transformational mini course https://www.vocalpresence.nl/activate-your-lifeforce/
Finally, I express my deep gratitude for the magnificent women that are around me and inside of One of Many Women.
For teaching and modelling to me what it means to experience a healthy and healing Mother power. So I can pass this on in my coaching and healing work, inside my own life for myself, and most of all in raising my own children.